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27 January 2009 @ 05:58 pm
After countless people mentioning things I've written in blog without me ever saying anything to them about the existence of one, I've decided to make this journal Friends Only.

My Life from 2006-2008 is yours to read.
This is the past. 
2009 is a new year. Time for change.

Comment to be added.

I would give anything not to have to go back to school.
Mrs. Broderick posted our Study Guide for the mid-term.
It brought me back to reality.
And it sucks.
I want to go to bed at 4 and sleep until 1 everyday.

I can't fucking wait for summertime.

Current Music: Call It A Lullaby - Scene Aesthetic
27 December 2008 @ 02:28 am
So these two guys, Sean & Cory are ridiculously good looking.
And they're in a band called Made Your Day. (their myspace)
There's nothing up there now, cause they're re-recording all their stuff.
I watch them record a lot.
"Butterflies" & "Moving Along" are my favorite. (: <3

I talk to these boys every night until about this hour (2:30/3)
& they make me so insanely happy.

When they do Death Cab & NeverShoutNever covers for me, it just, no pun intended, makes my night.
They said if I ever got down to SC, we'd totally chill, and I think that'd be amazing.
I even talk with Cory's mom sometimes!
She's such a sweetheart.

Blahblahblahblah. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
IDK why I posted this. 
I'm just OOZING with love for these kids.
25 December 2008 @ 10:36 pm
Significant Prezzies:
  1. Leopard for my Mac. (it's a beaut)
  2. Glamour Kills shirt [finally.]
  3. Pink sweatshirts (they always fit me swimmingly) & a zebra-print Hurley hoodie
  4. Guitar Hero 3. She meant to buy 4, but failed. She also bought the Rockband game & drum set. She thought I could use my GH guitars with it. She was mistaken. We've got some returning to do. : /
  5. New Vans (thank god.)
  6. Vans belt
  7. High Top white doodled converse
  8. high top layered neon converse
  9. Starbucks up the wazzoo
  10. iTunes cash
  11. Underwear. Yes, my mother went there.
  12. 3 Phone cases (Each parents bought one, then my dad forgot he bought one. Go figure)
  13. Many a jewelry (but my necklace & bracelet from Brian are by far my favorite. <3)
  14. Then of course theres the stuff from Grandpa, which i picked out. and had to open for show. A tiny black dress, a sweater, turquoise jeans & socks. All previously picked out.
  15. A Hippopotamus. 
  16. GHETTO ASS ELMO HAT (thank you kimberly!)
Fun fun fun.
I was certainly not as Christmas-Spirited this year.
Especially without anyone within 40 years of my age around ):

Current Music: I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas - Shirley Temple
25 December 2008 @ 12:53 am
Happy Christmas Everyone!!

To celebrate, I've uploaded some of my most favorite songs for you all.

They are all in this folder. (:

Here's the list:
  1. All I Want For Christmas Is Us - Jason Mraz & Tristan Prettyman
  2. Don't Shoot Me Santa - The Killers
  3. Christmas Wrapping - The Spice Girls (my favorite from the kiddy days)
  4. 12 Days Of Christmas - Relient K
  5. Last Christmas - Hawk Nelson
  6. All I Want For Christmas Is You - My Chemical Romance
  7. 30 Days - NeverShoutNever! [currently my most favorite band]
  8. I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas - Shirley Temple
  9. Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays - N*SYNC
  10. Santa Baby - Britney Spears
please let me know what you take!
love you guys! (: <3

Current Music: All I Want For Christmas Is Us - JM & TP
23 December 2008 @ 10:42 pm
 So I've known Greg & Steph have been planning something big for me for Christmas.
They've called my mother numerous times, and have discussed "Plan: Jesus Holding A Lamb" in front of me.
I never knew exactly what it was all about, just that I had to come straight home from school today.

I walked into the house, and Greg & Steph are there, dancing.
Steph, of course, in a Santa suit.
My first reaction?

"What're you WEARING?"

Then Steph drags me upstairs, to show me my room, COVERED in Christmas lights.
Bed? Covered.
Dresser? Covered.
Desk? Covered.
Curtains? Covered.
It was like being with stars. Really, really amazing.

Then, I start listening to this CD Steph made me which was funny & amazing.
THEN, Mr. Calabrese comes to drop off a DVD.
They made me a  video, first of them dancing, then just reminiscing on the past few years of being really close friends, it was really good.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pLxjZDHQJfM )

Then we just drank hot cocoa and watched Ellen.
It was by far one of the best days I've had in a long time.
Any suspicions I had about us growing apart completely faded today.
They're my best friends. And always will be.
Despite time & distance.

Current Music: Dusk & Summer - Dashboard Confessional
15 December 2008 @ 07:44 pm
I saw Spring Awakening again on Saturday.
No, it wasn't as amazing as the original cast, but it was still amazing.

My obsession with this play is beyond insane.
I know every single thing about it.
I bought a $44 book on it, complete with script and complete history of the show.
I'm getting the original book "Spring Awakening" written in the 19th century for Christmas.
I know every line in the show, and of course, every lyric in the songs.
The entire CD is in my top played.
50+ times for each song.
I follow the career of each individual person from the original cast.
(Hamlet 2, with Skylar Astin (<33333333333) and Pheobe Strole coming out soon. who will deal with my squeals with me (: ?)
I know their birthdays and hometowns.
I've got 100+ Spring Awakening icons saved to my computer.

This play consumes my soul.
I love it more than life. 
Current Music: And Then There Were None - SA
14 December 2008 @ 08:42 pm
Whether or not you liked Twilight (the movie) you'll find this funny:


I lol'd several times. (:
10 December 2008 @ 10:43 pm
I think by saying this I'm proving what I'm sure most of you already think of me, but I don't care.

I am completely, endlessly, 110%, head over heels, infinitely in love with Brian Hughes. (:
Current Music: Yourbiggestfan - nevershoutnever
09 December 2008 @ 05:25 pm
When Brian & I hung out on Saturday, there was this sexual tension the entire time.
We held hands at the show, but when we got back to his place, we were in his room, sitting close, just talking.
But then I left.
With nothing more than hand holding.
I wanted to so, SO bad.
But it's a veryyyy rare occasion that I make the first move. 
But this wanting was so strong I had to try again.
Maybe be more seductive instead of adorable.
So I invited him over again. (:

Brian came over yesterday after school, and after just hanging around in my basement for a bit, we got yelled at to do homework.
So we did, like good students.

Then we were just wandering around, and i sat on the ping pong table while he was talking.
He came and sat next to me. Close.
Then we turned to face each other indian style, and I just mirrored him, because I'm silly and immature like that.
And we just sat.
Forehead to forehead, nose to nose.
Staring at each other.
Talking occasionally, but not really.
Lips inches away, but never touching.
Both wanting it, neither brave enough to make the first move.

We did that for an hour.
Not like we noticed the time, my mom just came down to ask to help bring the ornaments down from the attic.
I sighed and took his hand to show him where to go.
I was mad my mother had interrupted me when I was lost Brian world.

When we finished, we went back downstairs, and proceeded in getting lost in each other's eyes again.
I'm so fascinated by him, I could really just look at him for, well, ever.
Finally, getting more tempted than ever, I whispered
"What're you thinking about?"
"... What're you thinking about?"
I giggled, and we had an "I asked you first!" arguement until we gave up and went back to staring.


Sometime later he asked again, "What're you thinking about?"
"you. ... and a song from the little mermaid"

(well, i did. but i was too chicken, as always)

He did his exhale laugh. "I think I know which one you're talking about."
"if only we had a tiny singing crab.."
He laughed.
His breathing was crazy and irregular, and his hands were shaking. 
Nervous, it was obvious.

I whispered "Want to feel something crazy?"
He nodded.
I took his hand and put it over my heart, which was beating abnormally fast, as it normally does when he's around.
He smiled.
And leaned in. And kissed me. Finally. FINALLY.

I was waiting for that for so long. I was so happy. elated. bewildered.

I haven't felt that way in SUCH a long time.

I never wanted to stop. Neither did he.
Seemed so infinite. I wished it was.

hooray first kisses.
and second kisses.
and third kisses.
etc. :)

Current Music: Invincible - Muse