My Life from 2006-2008 is yours to read.
This is the past.
2009 is a new year. Time for change.
"What're you WEARING?"
Then Steph drags me upstairs, to show me my room, COVERED in Christmas lights.
It was like being with stars. Really, really amazing.
Then, I start listening to this CD Steph made me which was funny & amazing.
THEN, Mr. Calabrese comes to drop off a DVD.
They made me a video, first of them dancing, then just reminiscing on the past few years of being really close friends, it was really good.
Then we just drank hot cocoa and watched Ellen.
It was by far one of the best days I've had in a long time.
Any suspicions I had about us growing apart completely faded today.
They're my best friends. And always will be.
Despite time & distance.
Sometime later he asked again, "What're you thinking about?"
"you. ... and a song from the little mermaid"
YES I KNOW IT'S LAME. I DON'T CARE. I DIDN'T KNOW HOW ELSE TO GET MY POINT ACROSS.
(well, i did. but i was too chicken, as always)
He did his exhale laugh. "I think I know which one you're talking about."
"if only we had a tiny singing crab.."
His breathing was crazy and irregular, and his hands were shaking.
Nervous, it was obvious.
I whispered "Want to feel something crazy?"
I took his hand and put it over my heart, which was beating abnormally fast, as it normally does when he's around.
And leaned in. And kissed me. Finally. FINALLY.
I was waiting for that for so long. I was so happy. elated. bewildered.
I haven't felt that way in SUCH a long time.
I never wanted to stop. Neither did he.
Seemed so infinite. I wished it was.
hooray first kisses.
and second kisses.
and third kisses.